Geometry of a Fool

Continual quest for unlocking my peace (day 12,949) -I surprisingly felt amazing punching and kicking this afternoon with a trainer. Actually, I was ready to go fists to cuffs after the session with bushes, trees even shadows. I was high on being sturdy and in control.
Sizing up my rush, "Must study self! Must study self!" I came to mull over the geometry of my fervor-
Geometry (Ancient Greek: γεωμετρία; geo = earth, metria = measure) is a part of mathematics concerned with questions of size, shape, and relative position of figures and with properties of space. Geometry is one of the oldest sciences. Initially a body of practical knowledge concerning lengths, areas, and volumes.

I feel peace when I feel safe, I feel safe when I know how to create boundaries. When there are no boundaries anything seems fair game and I don't always trust myself for protection and when there is no protection I feel I'm in survival mode. When I am in survival mode I feel destructive.
Long walks home do me good.

Boot Camps

So "Boot Camps" of all types seem appropriate for a gal like me-someone who wants to do a lot but is having a difficult time (lifetime if you will) sticking with one thing or getting started with another. I have talked to people about Dieter's Boot Camp, Exercise Boot Camp (today at 4 pm) and of course, Writer's Boot Camp. I am a well-rounded procrastinator. So why do Boot Camps have such an appeal to me? I am getting tired of yelling at myself and now I am outsourcing? I do crave structure but at hundreds of dollars for these captains of tough love making plans for spending money that I have not made yet-makes me question am I crazy? Yes. But I think I am starting to glimpse my crazinesses' baby daddy... I know what I want to do but am not doing it. That is the crazy maker. The actual outcomes I would like to produce are pretty inexpensive and clear. Begin writing and make it habitual. Take care of myself and make it priority. Choices. Choices equal outcomes and outcomes equal liability. Motion or stillness. Slave to my imagination or actions? I still plug my nose when I go off the high dive.

Blogging as Easy as One, Two Three!

Another night of of cable tv. It's a great way to make myself feel like I have the flu when I don't.